Jungle Heart

 

When everything turns upside down, I can't lie. I will have this ugly, sad eyes on my face no matter how hard I try not to think about what causing me having this bad mood. Something has to be done, lotsa lotsa things that is and I ended up just sit back and doing nothing but cry. I have no idea..............

Muse Mantra

You don't fall in love every single day.

Remember how it feels like? It causes you sick, it makes you smile, it blows your mind untill you can't see the difference between what's real and what's illusory. The coolest consequence of being in love is I always become productive in doing almost everything, especially making artwork. I get too exited over anything so I could make some plans to buy things or to create something which are mostly left in my mind after sometimes, yet to be forgotten :D

But then again, I don't fall in love everyday. I got mood-swing, I got haters, I got deadline, I got no time to do what I wanted to do. I get stuck, had no idea, am sooo tired, and all of a sudden everything became so much lame and undesireable. So I need some dope, I need Muse. I need something pretty to adore to, like when you see some movie the title so long I couldn't remember it, starring Kat Dennings and you found out how cute she is in there making some silly face or anything else. Well that's it!! That is exactly the feeling I need.

It's Muse Mantra. Something surprisingly making you  feel alive or just giving you some new idea, even when you know something else is sickenning, you just feel a moment of...of.....a moment of...adoring. (It's so retarded I couldn't find the right word) but anyhoo...I love making this collage. You got no idea how long I can match every piece altogether like this. It's like I need 3 days to get the right feeling. You know what I mean, right? Riiight?

Out of Boredom

Out of boredom, what would you do?
Well, I never knew what will I do exactly, but I believe everything we made is somehow popped out of our head and suddenly it's there, your hands are like...magicly working without any doubt.

These four illustrations are made for a guy I don't even know his real name is and insists to introduce himself as Attakk47. I met him once at One Family One Brotherhood #6 as I put my zine there for exhibition and -my bad- I forgot to ask his name because as I can remember we only have a small chat there about zine or something.
I also have always forgot people's name :p

Hard at It

The first time I went to recording studio to make some demo with TAKExONExSTEP is one of the most exiting moment I could remember the whole life :D You know it's not only about 'making stuffs', it's the time when your friends came by, giggle around, helping with some sing-along thingy, try not to fall asleep when you know things were not running so good and you need to be ready anytime, more indomih, more coffee, more cigarette. Anything can happen.

I also recall the first time I started my own zine, when the exitement lasts for only a week and the rest was really tough; lay-outing, realizing that I need to fill more spaces and pages, digging all the magazine to get some cute things to cut and paste to, going to photocopy shop with my eyes sparkled *lol*, spreading out the copies to all friends for free, producing some stickers and then how I was grinning all the time when I got emails from many people who read my zine and finally get embarassed with my own writings when I read it once again after a while.... those good ol days, so funny :)

So this is it, it's all about the feeling when you experience everything for the first time, when you are willing to do anything and get busy at, hard at it. And I made this patch with all those feelings been lingered. I always want to giveaway things I made. I kept this patch for such a looong time untill I met this guy and had a super-unstopable chit chat. He's a real inspiring zine-maker and also inspires many people around with everything he made and done, so I thought....this patch had to go to him. So be :)

And oh, almost forgot. He traded this patch with one of his drawings, I have a mix feeling about the fairy he drew, I like it, yes I do, but....errm it's kinda scarying and so weird. But I really love that he gave it to me as a birthday gift. Thank you, you!

New People Around is So.... Okay

It's a weird thing when I know some people who were once strangers and now I feel really okay with them. You know, It's how they poke me with their little stories, how they tickle me with such passion on something I don't really knew before and I'm exited over a new things like that. I discover a new life from them, that there are so many things could happen to you and everyone around while me myself be fell up with some kind of journey, secretly. A journey of how I embrace them, how I love them, how I hate them and how I keep everything I feel all by myself. And all I know is....I'm really glad to have a chance to know those newly-around people to have fun with or sharing secret with or in love with or get pissed off by...you name it ;)

I made this super collage for this girl, namely mila who love the 5 letter word: c-a-m-l-et :D she's just THAT adorable!